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1. CONWAY BAY

Words & Music by Judith Owen.
© 2007 Dog on the Bed Music (ASCAP). All rights on behalf of Dog on the Bed Music controlled and administered by Songs of MAM (ASCAP).

I took the road from Candacraig
To the Western Isles
Down into Conway Bay
I took the road through Heathered Hills
Put my arms around
The land that would haunt me still
I took the road from Candacraig
To the Irish Sea
Down to my mother’s grave
I took the road, through childhood times
Put my arms around
The girl who was always mine
And the bridges we burn
They make life so beautiful
They’re the places we yearn for
When we’re so far away
All those bridges we burn
That make life so beautiful
They’re childhood
Sunny days, rainy days…
I took the road from
Candacraig
To the Western Isles
Down into Conway Bay
I took the road
Through Heathered Hills
And at last I cried…
Ancient land you own me still

2. PAINTING BY NUMBERS

Words & Music by Judith Owen
© 2007 Dog on the Bed Music (ASCAP). All rights on behalf of Dog on the Bed Music controlled and administered by Songs of MAM (ASCAP).

I can be happy in sadness
I just can’t be happy in love
I can find comfort in madness
He’s like an old friend I can’t rise above…
And I can be
I can be
I can be
So unhappy
I could say
I could say
Every glass appears half empty to me…
But today
But today
That’s not who I want to be
I’m painting by numbers
And I want some calm in my comfort
I want some bounce in my brain
I want to stand behind one thought
And stop all this looking for blame
Don’t do bright
And don’t do breezy
So I stick with
What comes easy
I just want some cream on my corn flakes
I want to sugar my tea
I just want to stop all this torment
I want to do something that’s nice for me and…
And I could be
I could be
I could be
So unhappy
I could say
I could say
Every glass appears half empty to me
But today
But today
That’s not who I want to be…
So I’m painting by numbers
Painting by numbers

3. NICHOLAS DRAKE

Words & Music by Judith Owen
© 2007 Dog on the Bed Music and Dos Duettes Music (ASCAP). All rights on behalf of Dog on the Bed Music controlled and administered by Songs of MAM (ASCAP).

Nicholas Drake, how your songs made my heart ache
Each word that you spoke, every note that you sang
More dead than alive, how those demons inside you,
Denied you the joys of an every day scribe
At an old 29, well you thought it was time to move on
Yet your sadness and pain, could not dim the exquisite refrain
Of your lovely song
Walks by the seine, and the rain on umbrellas
Yes such was the soundtrack of your bitter sweet world
Though your gift was your curse, you were best though the worst
You were one in a million, a poet unheard
And the nearer you got, the more you were caught in the fray
In a world of applause, your voice was ignored
And so you just…turned away
And I wish you could see, the way people like me
Who’ve lived through your story, who’ve tried to be strong
Understand why you’d choose to be battered and bruised
Finally losing the fight, just to follow, follow your muse
Nicholas Drake, how your songs made my heart ache
Such beauty from pain, whether right whether wrong
It’s the gift you obeyed, it’s the art that you made
It’s the price that you paid for…
Your lovely song

4. SYMPATHY

Words & Music by Judith Owen
© 2007 Dog on the Bed Music (ASCAP). All rights on behalf of Dog on the Bed Music controlled and administered by Songs of MAM (ASCAP).

Well she sat before me and told me how
She’d put an end to the pain right here and now
To that old squeaky wheel, the noose around her neck
She said “Enough is enough, I’ve paid my debts”
She’s got a hold in the head where the rain fell through
She cared for so long, there’s nothing she wouldn’t do
For everyone, everywhere, but herself
She said, “I’m so tired of only having this…
Sympathy…sympathy…for everybody else
I need some sympathy for… myself”
She’s so hard on herself, to everyone she’s kind
She believes in the lie someone put in her mind
To that old squeaky wheel, the noose around her neck
Enough is enough, she’s paid her debts
She’s got a hold in the head where the rain fell through
She’s cared for so long, there’s nothing she wouldn’t do
For anyone, everywhere, but herself
She’s so tired of only having this… sympathy… sympathy…
For everybody else, she said
“ I need some sympathy for… myself”
Ponies and horses, apples and pears
Everyone’s different, but nobody’s spared
Well I met a woman and she told me straight
That at eighty and aging, she’s still full of self-hate
I want to stop it, I want it to end
I want me and myself to be the best of friends
I’m so tired of all the anguish, of my critical self
I’m so tired of only having…
Sympathy… sympathy…
For everybody else
I need some sympathy for …myself

5. COOL LIFE

Words & Music by Judith Owen
© 2007 Dog on the Bed Music (ASCAP). All rights on behalf of Dog on the Bed Music controlled and administered by Songs of MAM (ASCAP).

A cool life
That’s what they’re selling us
Look sharp, you’ll have them fooled
A cool life that’s what they’re offering us
Who cares what you think…
Or if you made it through your school
Cool life
Your face in magazines
Don’t make it look like work
Choose books that may look good on you
In your bespoke shoes and your boteng shirt
Everybody wants
Everybody wants
Parties every night
Endless shopping jaunts
Checking into rehab
That’s what all the sexy people do
You know it’s true you’ll meet your best friends there
And, everybody wants
Everybody wants
Everybody wants a cool life
A cool life
That’s all you read about
There’s nothing to compare
Can’t be too thin, or over-pout
Must learn to live on air
Who cares in Vincent killed himself
If Juliet died in vain
If you wear shades and spray on tan
Success will be thy name
Everybody wants
Everybody wants
Parties every night
Endless shopping jaunts
Checking into rehab
That’s what all the sexy people do
You know it’s true you’ll make the best friends there
And, everybody wants
Everybody wants
Everybody wants a cool life

6. CARRY

Words & Music by Judith Owen
© 2007 Dog on the Bed Music (ASCAP). All rights on behalf of Dog on the Bed Music controlled and administered by Songs of MAM (ASCAP).

I wouldn’t have to wonder
I wouldn’t have to wonder so much
No I wouldn’t have to wonder
Wonder when the road got so rough
If you’d just carry
Why d’you have to make life so hard?
Help me carry
Carry this love
Before it falls apart
Then I wouldn’t have to wonder
I wouldn’t have to wonder at all
(And) I wouldn’t have to wonder
I wouldn’t have to wonder each time
I wouldn’t have to wonder
Just what’s going on in that dark mind of yours
If you’d just carry
Why d’you have to make life so hard?
Help me carry
Carry this love, before it falls apart
Then I wouldn’t have to wonder
I wouldn ’t have to wonder at all

7. HAPPY THIS WAY

Words & Music by Judith Owen
© 2007 Dog on the Bed Music (ASCAP). All rights on behalf of Dog on the Bed Music controlled and administered by Songs of MAM (ASCAP).

Mother, dear Mother
Well where have you been?
I’ve been searching your face for so long
I want you to know just how happy I’ve been
I want you to know that I’m strong
Mother, dear Mother
Just look at me now
I can see both the sides of this world
And I can remember the smile on your face
Just as much as the pain of a lonely girl
And I want to dance in the streets until midnight
And to laugh, till the dawn of the day
And when they ask why I act so strange
(I’ll reply)
I’m just happy, so happy this way
And sister, dear sister
Just look at us now
Look at the changes we’ve made
God, we walked straight through hell
And it’s funny somehow
How we sink, how we swim, how we saved ourselves
So let us dance in the streets until midnight
Let us laugh till the dawn of the day
And when they ask why we act so strange
(We’ll reply)
We’re just happy, so happy this way
Well, I used to look back and regret everything
And dark was the colour of life
You forget any happiness
There might have been
When you hide so much hurt deep inside
But life is a cocktail of pleasure and pain
You can drink it or throw it goodbye
And one day you’ll feel you can love once again
And the memories of good days
Will grow inside
And then you will dance in the streets until midnight
And you’ll laugh till the dawn of the day
And when they ask why you act so strange
(You’ll reply)
I’m just happy, so happy this way
So let us dance in the streets until midnight
Let us laugh, till the dawn of the day
And when they ask why we act so strange
(We’ll reply)
We’re just happy, so happy this way

8. WE’RE ONLY HUMAN

Words & Music by Judith Owen
© 2007 Dog on the Bed Music (ASCAP). All rights on behalf of Dog on the Bed Music controlled and administered by Songs of MAM (ASCAP).

Susan’s crying
I know she is
Because she’s leaving us today
I wear my brave face
That is how it is
One of us falls apart
The other pulls away
But we’re only human
We’re only human
That’s the least
That’s the most that I can say
We’re only human
We’re only human
And I wouldn’t want it any other way
Never gets better
Being miles apart
It’s not quite the same thing on the phone
We need the distance, to be who we are
Both of us busy and still so lonely
We’re only human
We’re only human
And we wouldn’t want it any other way
Playing in the garden
Dressing up as Indians
You with your big cowboy hat on
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
I’d be listening
You’d be leading
Isn’t it enough, isn’t it enough
That there’s just 10 hour flights between us
But when you leave us
It’s still so hard
Susan’s crying
I know she is…
Because she’s leaving us today
I wear the brave face
That is how it is
One of us falls apart
The other…
The other pulls away

9. LOVE HAS 2 FACES

It’s a funny old game
This thing we call love
No one explains
It has 2 faces
I wish you the best
I wish you the worst
Pity and shame
Forgiveness and blame
A kiss and then a curse
The bitterest words
The gentlest of touch
They live side by side (and sometimes)
That is almost enough
We’re happy today
Tomorrow who knows
I’ll threaten to leave
& you’ll beg me to go
We twist and we turn
We struggle with fate
The more that we love darling
The deeper that we can hate
It’s a funny old game
This thing we call love
No one explains
It has 2 faces
Like the sun and the rain
Love has 2 faces

10. DARK CLOUDS

Dark clouds
You’ve been here such a long time
What now
Now that my mind feels so clear and
All those worries and misgivings
Only kept me from the living
Cluttered mind with thoughts unnerving
Made me feel so undeserving
(of happiness)
Dark clouds…
Look who’s happy now
Dark clouds…
Guess who’s smiling now
I really think
It might be me!
Who says
You only get one chance in this life
Feels like someone’s given me my sight back
All those worries
And misgivings
Only kept me from the living
Cluttered mind with thoughts unnerving
Made me feel so undeserving (of any love)
Dark clouds
Look who’s smiling now
Dark clouds
Look (guess) who’s smiling now
I (really) think
It might be me!

11. MY FATHER’S VOICE

Oh my father’s voice
Was a very special thing
And when I went to sleep
I knew I’d wake to hear him sing
And every morning when he’d warm up
There was hope that it would bring
In the joy in his face
When he reached that hallowed place
And I made my choice
I chose my father’s voice
Oh my father’s voice
Was a very special thing
And in our house or mirrors
There was safety it would bring
And the clouds above my bedroom
They would part, and show me spring
And my pride reached its fill
And my sadness lost its will
And I had no choice
But to choose my father’s voice
Oh my father’s voice
Is still a very special thing
Yet he doesn’t seem to understand
The pleasure that it brings
To all my friends, who love him
When he sings old Xmas hymns
And I’m proud and I’m pleased
That through him, they must see me
I’m the acorn, he’s the oak
Heart strung girl, heartfelt bloke
Oh I had no choice
I am my father ’s voice

12. BONUS TRACK: ENOUGH (Quantic Remix)

And if you want to dim those memories
Sit back, relax and give in please
But don't you know...
Enough is never quite enough!
Never quite enough!